Its ok

I just wanted to post this in response to the post i just read.

I was sexually abused by my step-father from the ages of ten through thirteen. I was so scared everytime it happened that i couldn’t move a muscle. I would tell my mother every morning after it happened and she would say that it would never happen again, and it always did. I had to live with that man for five years. I finally made him stop but i couldn’t leave so i had to stay until i graduated from high school. when i later brought it up to my mother and accused her of being as much at fault as him, she said that i was crazy and that i needed to be commited for even thinking that it had ever happened. I had told social workers that it happened and they asked my mother for confirmation. when my mother found out about it she said i was lying to get them in trouble. She and i got into a fight after it. I am only saying that it is not right for a father, brother, uncle, neighbor, ANYONE! to touch you without your permission. it is not ok. it is not fine, you cannot self medicate it. it will not stop until you take a stand and MAKE it stop. find a teacher, a cop, a neighbor who you trust. find some way to get out of the situation. find someone to let you stay the night with them and then go to the police about it. Do not let yourself become another statistic. i am sick of the abuse victims who think that they are not good enough to be saved. you are worth it. I made myself worth it and i am going to work my hardest to find a way for others to get out of it.

plz answwwer iwill suicde

iam feeling depreeseed iam 14 years old girl and always my bro keep having sex with me atnigh….whatishould doicant tell anyooooonnnee plz answeer me and my mom is treating me like a dog and treat my bro better although i didnt do anything wrong like when i teell heriwant new cloth she tells me no u r a dog andnot girl to have clothim sooo depressed by what she is doiinnngg iwill kiill my sellllfffff

I Really Like You

You’re my best friend, and I’ve known you for almost 10 years now.

I hadn’t realised until a few months ago that I felt more strongly about you, and the more I saw you the worse it got.

Then the other night we were both so drunk and you ended up in my bed, you held me so close, wrapped you arms around me and entwined your fingers with mine.

I lay in bed last night and realised how empty it felt, and how much I wanted you there with me.

Do you like me too? Or was it just the drink?

I guess I’ll never know, because I’m too scared to ask.

is this really it?

I don’t know where to begin. I am having all these angry thoughts of guilt for being borne into such a privileged society. I sit in my house comfortably reading a book on world hunger and feel glutenous. I feel so disconnected from what life really should be about. I am fed up with the system that has been in place and have no one to talk to about it. My boyfriend thinks I’m crazy and won’t hold a deep philosophical conversation with me. I am too afraid to talk to people who are convicted humanitarians because I fear I will sound stupid and no amount of knowledge I gain makes me feel like I am worthy of a deep, substantial relationship.

I want to join the peace corps but I know I never will. I want someone else to do it with me because being alone is lonely and I want someone to share life with. I cannot seem to find that person though. I am afraid I will die alone with the knowledge that this is a horrible world and no matter what I do I cannot fix everything.

I am confused as to what to do with my existence and sometimes wonder if it is worth living at all.

Prank Phone Calls

I was sexually abused by several family members over a period of ten years. No one knew. It damaged me as a child.

One summer I prank called the home of a classmate whose life seemed perfect. I called a few hundred times that summer. I guess I was jealous and did not know what the H*LL I was doing. I really caused them a problem.

It’s been 40 years ago and I am still very sorry that I did that.

Daydreaming

I recently ran into an old friend. We never dated because the timing was never right — I was in a relationship when he was single, he was married when I was single. Now he’s single again, and I am happily married with three kids. The problem? I can’t stop thinking about him.

I know I should put my energy into my marriage instead (My husband is wonderful, handsome, successful and famous), yet all I can think about is my old friend…both sexual and just plain romantic fantasies. I wish I were single so we could just go to the movies, or on a drive together. I keep thinking of ways to run into him again.

I know I need to stop this foolishness. I feel guilty, but I can seem to stop the daydreaming…

Gay Love

I find my best friends dad attractive im 17 his 42 but cant help feeling this way everytime we see each other we always flirt and muck around luckyly my bestfriend thinks we just get along like old mates but little does he no i have strong feelings for his dad and would one day like to be with him forever i always fantasise about having sex in my bestfriends bed with his dad i know this sound wierd but i cant help it

Never Satisfied

I never feel satified with my life. I feel like thats a main goal in life is to be completely satsfied, but i can never reach the level of satisfaction i desire. I try in school to do the best i can, but i still end up getting adverage grades. I try to be the best at somthing but theres always someone that is better then me. I cant stay in relationships when im in them and think that i would be happier single. But when im single i feel the need for a guy to be with. I act so strong and like i love my life, but i really dont love it. Why cant i ever satisfy myself??

Hateful

I saw my bra in my sister’s closet.It was hidden. I don’t speak with her since then. What kinds of a person wears people’s underwear?

Decision

I’ve been in a job since last May. At first I liked it very much and was very enthused as it was my first job. But after they fired the operations manager everything took a turn for the worst. People often talked about resigning and I immediately started seeking another job. I did a couple of interviews and after about three months one called yesterday saying I got the job. I am so happy. But I feel a bit heavy inside because a lot of ppl have been resigning. I feel bad for leaving. The worst thing is I go on vacation as of tomorrow. I havent handed in my resignation letter as yet. I dont know what to do.

Cruel to my own heart

I am involved with a seemingly wonderful man. But I am interested in this other guy. We go on dates sometimes and he visits me too. We have not been intimate but have come close to it sometimes. The worst thing is he also has a girlfriend. I care about him and its like sometimes days will go by and he doesnt call and sometimes weeks and we dont see each other. That drives me crazy sometimes. I’ve told myself on countless occassions that I’ll stop seeing him and then he just does something to make me feel otherwise.

6 yrs, no proposal ;(

After six years he has not proposed. All I get is words and no action. He about us getting married years now but never proposes. Every night I lie in my bed and cry myself to sleep because this man that I love unconditionally and want to spend the rest of my life with, he just cannot seem to make a commitment and get engaged to me. It’s on my mind all day everyday. I feel like inside my heart is empty. I can’t put it out of my mind that he will leave me and go for someone else eventually that’s why he wouldn’t commit. And that is a definite possibility because his mother hates me even though I have been the best girlfriend for the past 6 years. I can’t even talk to him about us and a future because he knows, my friends and family knows, everybody knows I want to be engaged and I will feel like I am pressuring him if I tell him how I feel. But after 6 wonderful, dedicated years, I feel to leave him since he cannot commit further to me. He is my world and my world is causing me so much hurt and pain inside and I can’t even tell him.