Secret Confessions

Every single one of my ‘best friends’ has a fault. They have no qualities that I want in a friend. I want someone to look up to… not down on… you know? Sometimes I feel awkward just being around other sixteen-year-olds. They’ve been kissed. They have jobs; cars.

What do I have?

An abuse trial.

No income.

Crappy friends…

Ugh. >.<

I’m sixteen and have never had a boyfriend last more than a month. I’ve never done anything past kissing. I’m always the one to break it off because I feel like there’s someone out there that I keep missing. I keep believing that the perfect guy will come along, but all around me my friends are getting into serious relationships. At the same time, I don’t want to settle just for the sake of settling. I feel like I’m going to go on like this forever.

I have a child by him, I married him, I love him….or at least I thought I did.

I have been with him for 4 years and have a 2 year old child with him. I now have no want or need for him. I feel his ex wife means more to him than I do. I have very little love for him and no longer want to be with him. I just don’t know what to do put keep up the front since everyone says “you are jest having a hard time; it’ll get better”. But deep down, I know it won’t get better only worse, but I will stay for a while at least

I’m a 15 year old girl and I finally got the courage to tell my parents about my depression .

But I didn’t tell them about my efforts to purge, my desire to be thin and the fact that almost every day, I throw my lunch to the garbage when they can’t see.

My ex hurt me damn badly. i want to hate her, but i cant seem to do it. sometimes i still wish we were together. but i know its not what i actually want. sometimes i hate her, times i don’t. i’m going crazy. i gotta let go.

i have been with this guy for 6 years and his mother has a probelm with me because i am not the same religion as him. she keeps telling him to open his eyes and get some one else and that i am bad and cannot love him. everytime i am with him she calls and disturbs us, every time! all this tim ei knew him i was faithfull, loving, dediccated and the best i can be. i love him and he loves me. but his mother keeps trying to leave me and find someone else. i told him he needs to speak to her about her unacceptable behavior, he says he will but never does. i think he respects her in a dum way so he would not ever oppose what she is saying outright like that. i am ready to be engaged now after so long but it seems like she keeps turning his mind away every time. somebody please tell me what to do, i love him to much to let go.

Some times I wish I would be raped which I know is horrible.

i am in love with dis guy from a very long time but have not told him ever as he is serious about some body else don’t know what to do?they both even thought of getting married but it is not working out due to some non matching of stars and all but still they talk to each other and he has no time for me now.he will get marry very soon where his parents wishes too.i am in love with this guy don’t know what to do?? should i leave him or wait? cant think my life without him :(

i ve been married since i was 17…i got pregnant and so we got married after a few months…my husband is always abroad working cause he has a very good job..i met a guy who made me understand what luv is..he sad he wants me to move in with him and leave my husband… i don t know what i m going to do..cause after all my husband never did anything wrong but i feel as if i m living a lie…

My husband doesn’t know I paid for my new sandals in the back room of the shoe store on my knees.

I am an ugly 23 year old girl. Who has never been loved. My family, my friends find me utterly good, but not a single person around me finds me interesting.

I am so alone… its like I am the only colourless picture in a colourful world of happiness and love. No one loves me, because I am not pretty or skinny. I am the loudest person in my group and the fattest one too.

I feel like I am so alone, so single, so utterly depressed to see everyone having a partner, except for me. I am fed up of my self I need some one who could care for me… I am an empty room with nothing in me. I need comfort,I need someone who would understand me and love me for what I am.

I know you’re sleeping with her. You’re probably with her right now. I feel angry and betrayed but I also feel guilty because deep inside a part of me that is relieved that you are getting it somewhere else so you don’t expect me to do it all the time. Even though I would never admit it out loud, this is why I let you do it and never say a word.

Its been rough, seeing you in the hallways, knowing that you know so much personal stuff about me but you don’t care.
I made a mistake this past year. I take full responsibility for my mistakes, you on the other hand just seem to want to act as if nothing happened.
Life doesn’t work that way. You can’t just befriend a girl who’s fallen head-over-heels for you, get all this personal information about her from her and then act like we were never even friends. If I could tell you how much I’ve wanted to just screw everything for the both of us up by telling you how much I liked you at one point, I would. But I’m already beginning to get over you and this stupid mess I got myself into. I’m not about to go back.

If you ever hear the song “Wasted” by Brandi Carlile, this situation will make more sense then.

I wish things could have worked out for us. But sometimes thats just the way the world turns.

I call them my “best friends”, but they mean no more to me than the next guy I pass on the street. My roomates are so mean to me, but it’s not in an upfront, in your face kinda way. Just tonight they left to go out to eat without me while I was in the shower… they just left me without inviting me to go along or anything. They constantly instant message each other and text message bad things about me while I’m in the room. It hurts my feelings so so bad. However, I never say anything. I pretend like everything is ok, but inside I want to die. I wish I had friends who appreciated me and talked to me about things. I know one day, I will explode and who knows whats gonna happen… I believe that day is fast approaching

I was with my husband for 6 years. Through the course of our relationship, he grew to be a college graduate and a successful businessman, earning 0K a year, traveling 2-3 weeks out of the month, and, in my mind, constantly reminding me I was never good enough. I loved his spark, his humor, his ambition, the nice dinners and vacations we would have, the big 4-bedroom house and our little family of neurotic pets. But the big house got lonely. And I got tired of never being good enough. I needed emotional support, which I searched for and finally found in a good male friend of mine. When I left my husband 3 months ago, I slept with my friend. I wavered back and forth as my husband tried to win me back and I wanted to go home, but I felt drawn to the comfort of my friend, afraid to let my husband back in. Then I made a cross-country move with my friend. We’re living in a hotel, looking for a 2-bedroom place, unwilling to admit we are in a relationship even to each other. I am miserable. Running away has only made things worse. I am somehow still reluctant to divorce my husband. I see pictures of him and his new girlfriend and I want to choke her. But I can’t imagine going back to that emotional place. I want to tell my friend I love him, because I think he needs to hear it…. but I don’t love him that way. Not because he doesn’t deserve it… but because I am still in love with my husband, and I don’t feel like I am worthy of love… from anyone.