guns?

ever since a random person pointed a gun at my friend i feel like i want to get a gun and do that

don’t want to hurt her

i’m a 20 y/o girl, and in June2006 I met another girl online. we talked for a couple of months before I found out she was engaged to a guy. in those two months, I fell really hard for her, so imagine what that did to my heart. for some reason, I took her back, knowing i was her cyber-affair(or something like that) still wonder why I did that, probably because I chose that instead of not having her at all. I know it wasn’t right. she ended it with me last year(august), so many reasons: my family is homophobic, so I had to hide my relationship from them; we were(still are) in different countries; she was older than me(27 & 19), and so on… deep down, I knew she wasn’t going to choose me, but I guess I was hoping she would. I would have waited for her.

Anyway, two months later, I met another woman online. she’s much older than me(i’m almost 21 and she turned 49 last month) but i love her so much. and i know she loves me a lot. right now, we’re making plans so I can go to the states and be with her right after I finish school, we’ve even talked about babies.

–►but sometimes i wonder if my love will be enough to make a life with her. i don’t want to hurt her…

I am not a killer!

I cannot even remember how many people were killed anymore. It’s so sad that the lives of the innocent are not as valuable as the life of one bad person. If the target happened to be in a hotel, on a street corner, in a store… it didn’t matter who was around when the shot was fired. I am so sorry. I missed and had to just unload after that. I was always more worried I would miss the target and they would be the ones shooting bystanders. I never meant to miss. You can’t imagine how hard it is to keep cool, there is no way. I am so sorry.

I Hate Myself

i hate myself for no reason! i always bring myself down. i never give myself any credits for doing anything right! i dont know why im like this and i really hate what i made myself become! i dont trust people coz they’re the reason i feel so dead and broken so useless and pathetic! the only reason im still alive is because im still searching for the missing pieces!

i m sorry

I’m sorry for all the thing I’ve said,
And for the times I’ve done somthing to hurt you.

My feelings were all I cared about.
Our friendship now totally changed.
Really, I wish I could take it all back.

..Roads now forked in opposite directions.
Your trust I have lost.

I am Sorry for All i Did!=)

on frnshp day i propsed on of best frnd frm that day she in not talking to me i just want to knw that ?? wrng in ths is it wrng to tell u felling to some one if i m wrong if i hurt uuuuu but pls talkkkkkkk……

now evry day is like to live in hell pls i m begging uuuuu n saying sorry ?? i did

nails

sometimes when i’m alone…i cut myself vigorously with this rusty nail i found outside my house. it hurts…but in a good way…you know kinda like when you get beaten on by your teacher…anyway i do this cause i’m emo….

Childhood Nightmare

When I was little I was sexually assaulted by a family member of mine. I was 7, she was 13. It went on for 3 years. It ended finally 6 years ago, but I’m still haunted by it.

I want to tell family or friends, but I fear that the truth will rip our family apart. I’ve become depressed and suicidal over it. As well, it’s made me question my sexuality (I am a girl, as was she).

I’m 16, I shouldn’t have to deal with this. But my family doesn’t deserve to deal with it either. I don’t know what to do, and I can’t talk about this to anyone.

:(

I’m 17 and I play around with my 16 year old sister a lot.

The thing is that when we play wrestling I always feel her up and just act like I’m not doing anything.

Like if I’m holding her from behind I put my hand in her armpit and my palm on her left breast with my arm pretty much all over her breasts.

She never objects or acts like she notices.

Duet

We started out as friends and I thought that it would grow into something more. He would call me everyday and we would talk for hours about everything… our favorite thing to do however was to sing together… he has an amazing voice. One day he decided to stop talking to me. A year has gone by since I spoke to him last and I thought I was finally over him until I saw him at a friend’s house… all the emotions came rushing back when he sang… reminding me of all the good times. But were they good times? Is he worth it?… He does not even look at me. I am falling for someone who I am completely invisible to… he will never know how I truly feel.

Alone

I like to be alone, i used to work alone on projects and stuff like that. i must be weird or something…

secret lesbian thoughts

i am a straight married 35 yo woman, but ever since i was in high school, i’ve been attracted to women. i don’t want a romantic relationship – just sex. i love watching lesbian porn when my husband is out of the house. no one knows about my lesbian urges. i want to find a woman to have sex with so badly.