he made me love it

Posted by in Regret on Dec 12th, 2007 | 3 comments

When I was a 16 year old boy one of my 22 year old male cousins had sex with me and when he got done I was in love with him. For the next year I’d ask him for more and got it, but now that I’m older than he was then I regret those times.

eating disorder

Posted by in Fear on Dec 10th, 2007 | 7 comments

I have an eating disorder, Ive managed to keep it from all my friends and family and I even have a secert myspace I use to recieve pro ana tips and talk to other ana’s it scares me though. And IM really afraid of someone finding out.

Christmas

Posted by in Hate on Dec 9th, 2007 | 3 comments

I hate buying Christmas gifts and cards for family and friends becasue I never feel like my gifts are good enough.

dogs

Posted by in Childhood on Dec 8th, 2007 | 4 comments

I was the oldest of 5 kids, I hated being around them, and my parents fought all the time, I hated that also, so I grew up closer to the yard dogs than any of my siblings, I’m 62 now and still love dogs better than them.

Sizzlin-Affairs!!

Posted by in Guilt on Dec 5th, 2007 | 1 comment

I have been with my first love for 5yrs.Since,I was 17yrs old.At 23yrs old.I had cheated on him this year 2007.One guy who was my boyfriend who I met online and the other’s too.But..I used them all for sex.I have not got caught and I told him when I left him for 2weeks that I was doing drugs(I was with my lover)So now I have to attend rehab to cover my affair.I got a DUI so I can’t drive or get a job-I have to take this to the grave but this guilt is killing me.When he say’s he love’s me.I won’t NEVER EVER tell him.I have a daughter and now..I have to think of her before my lust.I broke up with my ex online boyfriend since..I think he was fallin in love and he was or wanting more…So had to let go of him.I feel so bad and sick of my being.But I promised myself I would not cheat ever again no matter how tempting it is.His the love of my life and I have to live n learn from my mistakes and not repeat them again.

Fraud

Posted by in Guilt on Dec 1st, 2007 | 4 comments

I bought a whole bunch of stuff on the company credit card, include paying into my paypal with it. I thought I could create invoices to cover up the spending and I would have gotten away with it if I hadn’t been sacked for something else before the end of the month. Now I’m waiting for the axe to fall. I got a letter last week basically saying that they knew and the money has been reversed out of my paypal. I looked up the penalty and it’s 10 years for embezzelment. My husband has no idea that I’m about to go to jail and I’ve just started a new job.

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