Secret Confessions

I was the oldest of 5 kids, I hated being around them, and my parents fought all the time, I hated that also, so I grew up closer to the yard dogs than any of my siblings, I’m 62 now and still love dogs better than them.

I have been with my first love for 5yrs.Since,I was 17yrs old.At 23yrs old.I had cheated on him this year 2007.One guy who was my boyfriend who I met online and the other’s too.But..I used them all for sex.I have not got caught and I told him when I left him for 2weeks that I was doing drugs(I was with my lover)So now I have to attend rehab to cover my affair.I got a DUI so I can’t drive or get a job-I have to take this to the grave but this guilt is killing me.When he say’s he love’s me.I won’t NEVER EVER tell him.I have a daughter and now..I have to think of her before my lust.I broke up with my ex online boyfriend since..I think he was fallin in love and he was or wanting more…So had to let go of him.I feel so bad and sick of my being.But I promised myself I would not cheat ever again no matter how tempting it is.His the love of my life and I have to live n learn from my mistakes and not repeat them again.

I bought a whole bunch of stuff on the company credit card, include paying into my paypal with it. I thought I could create invoices to cover up the spending and I would have gotten away with it if I hadn’t been sacked for something else before the end of the month. Now I’m waiting for the axe to fall. I got a letter last week basically saying that they knew and the money has been reversed out of my paypal. I looked up the penalty and it’s 10 years for embezzelment. My husband has no idea that I’m about to go to jail and I’ve just started a new job.