She’s Only Seventeen

AND my girlfriend’s daughter. And I am CRAZY about her. It’s not (just) a physical attraction. I also ADORE her personality. She’s great.

Grandpa

Even now almost twenty years after he has died, I still wish and dream about him and for him. I feel silly as a young woman still missing him after this long.

I want to hear him sing. To hand him his hermonica. To work with him in the garden for hours learning everything I could about everythign he loved. I want to smell his shaved face and see his kind eyed. I miss him. So much.

I tried to carry with me in life, almost like my own What Would Grandpa Do? Because I choose a man my Grandfather would have Loved, I am now the happiest of wives. Thank you for showing me what a good man is. With out you I would never have had this good of a life.

Thank you Grandpa.

Doesn’t Know

I see you everyday and yet I have no gut’s to confess how I feel. everytime when I see you, my heart beats out of pace. I don’t know if you felt the same. I avoid you is not because I hate you or anything, probably I’m a coward. And I hate myself for that. And probably you will never know how i feel. Time runs fast……. Starting tomorrow I’ll probably never see you again. I think I’m going to cry every night till I’ll get over it. If there’s such thing called fate we will meet again.

Celibate

I’m 31 yrs old and I’ve never kissed a guy.

i hate you

i hate that you won’t let me be with the person i love! Your sappouse to be my bestfriend.. but noo.. just cause you liked him and one point.. and he didn’t like you.. its been 2 years since then!!.. and i hate you for it. i do i hate you!!.. you have a boyfriend and i can’t even be happy

I will always love you

Jason i love you and i don’t know how to tell you. It should be the one thing that i can tell you, since we talk about everything. I just can’t.
Your the only one i want to be with. When you hug me, i never wanna let go..

Fear of being alone.

I have an unnerving fear of being or dying alone. I fear that I’m not going to find anyone to love me for another 50 years or…even never. Sure I’m still young, but it seems like everyone around me who’s younger than me has a better love life than I do, and I hate it. Even if I don’t get sex, at least being held would be the best thing that’s ever happened to me for three years. Is that hard to ask for?

I just got so jealous!!

I’ve been going out with my boyfriend for about a year now. I love him more than anything in the world. However, about 3 months ago he got a new job at an insurance company. He was being paid great money and he seemed pretty happy. The only thing that made me upset was that he kept spending long hours at the office and I completely knew I was blowing the whole situation out of porportion. However, I couldn’t help wondering what he was up to. Was he cheating? I was being paranoid! So, on Sunday, we were going into church and Clark(my boyfriend) spotted a lady named Karen, who worked in his office. He immediately went over and said hi and they started talking. Right off the bat, I started to become jealous and I started thinking that he was with her really, when he was staying late hours at the office. I knew it wasn’t true but the thought of it, kept eating me alive. I got so miserable, that I went out and confinded in my friend, Blaze. Things led to one another and we ended up having sex. I didn’t have any feelings for Blaze but I thought of having sex with him to get revenge at Clark. I know it wasn’t right and im miserable. Im so ashamed. I can’t even get the nerv up to tell Clark. I know that if i do, however, that the relationship will be over. I have some serious thinking. :/

I had sex but nobody came

I have this nightmare. My wife tells me "go upstairs honey and I’ll be right up to make love with you". So I go upstairs wash my pits, brush my teeth and get undressed. I get in the bed & I hear the front door slam. I run down stairs & she’s in the car driving away. Oh well curses foiled again!

forbidden love

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4 Katherine

I still miss you dearly, everyday, since last time we met. Katherine, I just wish you knew how much you mean to me, how sincere I was to care for you, to be kind for you.

oops

I used to have gerbils when I was a child. I forgot to feed them and they all died.