Secret Confessions

I have an unnerving fear of being or dying alone. I fear that I’m not going to find anyone to love me for another 50 years or…even never. Sure I’m still young, but it seems like everyone around me who’s younger than me has a better love life than I do, and I hate it. Even if I don’t get sex, at least being held would be the best thing that’s ever happened to me for three years. Is that hard to ask for?

I’ve been going out with my boyfriend for about a year now. I love him more than anything in the world. However, about 3 months ago he got a new job at an insurance company. He was being paid great money and he seemed pretty happy. The only thing that made me upset was that he kept spending long hours at the office and I completely knew I was blowing the whole situation out of porportion. However, I couldn’t help wondering what he was up to. Was he cheating? I was being paranoid! So, on Sunday, we were going into church and Clark(my boyfriend) spotted a lady named Karen, who worked in his office. He immediately went over and said hi and they started talking. Right off the bat, I started to become jealous and I started thinking that he was with her really, when he was staying late hours at the office. I knew it wasn’t true but the thought of it, kept eating me alive. I got so miserable, that I went out and confinded in my friend, Blaze. Things led to one another and we ended up having sex. I didn’t have any feelings for Blaze but I thought of having sex with him to get revenge at Clark. I know it wasn’t right and im miserable. Im so ashamed. I can’t even get the nerv up to tell Clark. I know that if i do, however, that the relationship will be over. I have some serious thinking. :/

I have this nightmare. My wife tells me "go upstairs honey and I’ll be right up to make love with you". So I go upstairs wash my pits, brush my teeth and get undressed. I get in the bed & I hear the front door slam. I run down stairs & she’s in the car driving away. Oh well curses foiled again!

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I still miss you dearly, everyday, since last time we met. Katherine, I just wish you knew how much you mean to me, how sincere I was to care for you, to be kind for you.

I used to have gerbils when I was a child. I forgot to feed them and they all died.

I got it into my head that I wanted to hook up with an ex girlfriend on a trip to my home state with my current girlfriend. All I could think about was the great sex we use to have & if I could just get away for an afternoon no one would be the wiser. I called her house & her mother answered & said bluntly & with no emotion, "Sue is dead" WHAT? HOW? WHEN? "5 years ago, she had aids." OMG she got aids right after I left or even right before I left. I felt so awful, so many emotions, sadness & anger but you know what mostly I felt. It was relief. Relief that I did not have aids & relief that we could not hook up. I have been faithful to my girlfriend ever since. To this day it makes me shutter to think I came so close to contracting aids.

I love my fiance with all my heart. But right now, I blame him for the crap I’m suffering through at work. If he had kept it in his pants, maybe she wouldn’t be targeting me this way. I hate the fact that after putting his infidelity behind me for 4 years, it’s coming back up to bite me on the ass.

I voted for Ross Perot in ‘92, virtually throwing my vote away. Which ultimately led to the calamity of the Clinton years.

My two best friends decide to ditch me for this "popular" girl who invites them to go sit at a private table Emma says I’m a complete whore but she does’nt know anything about me so Emma you’re in for a rude awakening because I’m about to smack that bitch up one way or another Emma says she knows everything about "fashion" but now since you’ve turned my two most best friends against me I’m going to make a phone call on your birthday and since you have call ed me a whore well here’s the best birthday present ever I’m going to come over to your house knock on your door and when you open it here comes that rude awakening and then I’m going to start calling you a whore a bitch a motherfucking friend stealer and I won’t have any guilt from because you stole my friends, my reputation,and my personality so it’s time to bring out a new Roxy and it’s time to bring out the brave tough and smart as in smart alecso in two days you’re going to be in for a rude awakening.

…two days later well I’m in my room but I’m not grounded actually my mom’s is getting me pizza and do you want to know why she’s getting me pizza+ ice cream its because it was her idea to tear Emma up and emma said sh’es tough but then why didn’t shhe fight back

You promised to stick by me for life. You were my best friend but after attending your language course in China, you’ve become a total slut.

I own his number one fansite but the truth is, I hate all of you stupid fans - you are all so greedy and request things from me without a please and thanks. Get your shit out of my face.

I prefer my online friends to my school friends.

As a guy I have a really hard time relating to guys… and I used to look at gay porn although I am not gay… Girls gimme a call lol

i have no friends. not one. and i haven’t for years. my family says i should "lower my standards" but the fact is i find most women dumb and poiintless, and i am at an age where it is hard to have male friends because of their wives. yeah, i sound bitter, and i’m sure that doesn’t help. i used to be nice and caring, but like most men, enough relationships with women have made me bitter about them. did i mention i don’t really mind anymore?