Tracked someone I’ve never met on facebook for 6 years

This is a really weird confession. 6 years ago I came out of a long term relationship, and had a really short fling with a guy. I was a bit of a mess after the break up, and got really insecure and jealous about this new guy. There was a really pretty girl who sometimes left messages on his facebook.

There wasn’t really anything suspicious about the messages, she was just stunning and it made me insecure. The fling finished quickly, and naturally, and was no big deal. But in the time we were together I got so obsessed with this girl I made a fake fb account and friended her. She had loads of friends, and accepted the request with no questions. I started to follow what she was up to.

After the fling finished I continued to follow her fb through the fake account, and became really fascinated with her life. She just seemed so beautiful and interesting. After a while I stopped feeling jealous and just loved to see what she was doing, a bit like reading a book. Once, I called the number she had put on fb after losing her phone, said hi, and then sorry, wrong number. she sounded nice.

Since then I have seen the breakup of her relationship, move to a different city, start of a new one, and finally the birth of a baby. It’s been 6 years now, and every now and again I log on to the fake account, and catch up with what she’s been up to. It’s so strange – I have no desire to meet her or anything, but I’ve followed what she’s been doing now for so long I feel like I know her. I even felt really happy for her when she had her baby.

I wrote “tracked” because I don’t want to meet her, or think we have any connection or anything, so I don’t feel like it’s stalking. But I guess it kind of is!

I’ve never told anyone about this, because obviously, I’d probably be carted off to the loony bin!

Terrified of my lie

When i was around 11 years old i lied that a man approched me and wanted to kidnap me. The police got involved. It think they figured i lied and my parents never spole of it again. Now afew/some years later i am writting this after having afight with my boyfriend and in the heat of the moment i lied that i ahd been raped 2 years ago. I am now dying inside and terrified even mortified of it ever getting out. I have told only small lies and i am a good girl at school and at ballet. It feels lile someone is digging out my stomach and i am petrified thinking that it may get out or that he will live the rest of hos life thinking that i was raped.

Idiotic

The other night I got blackout drunk and apparently almost went home with a man in a cab. I am engaged and am now wracked with guilt. I am never drinking without my fiancé around, ever again.

I am getting married but I still thinks about my ex

I have a loving boyfriend and we are planning to get married next year. But sometimes I will think of my ex, not romantically, but how different or better my life would be if we were still be together. Because my ex is staying overseas, in a country that I have always been looking forward to. I know if my current boyfriend knows this, he will be upset.

I Hope I’m Not Pregnant

My boyfriend and I haven’t had sex, but he came over one morning before school and we were laying together naked. we did things here and there and when I got up and started getting dressed, i noticed that was some stuff on my thigh. I thought nothing of it at the time, but later I started thinking, could I still get pregnant, even if the sperm was only on the outside? Why am I worried about this? Well I haven’t gotten my period. I looked up online, and apparently you can still get pregnant even if the sperm didn’t go inside of you initially, if the sperm is close enough to your entrance it can work it’s way inside. so I’m having an anxiety attack and praying that I get my period in the next couple of days.

Useless

I have plenty of very good friends and there is nothing wrong in my life but I still feel so alone and I am sad. I feel like I’m wasting my life everyday even though I fill it with things to do and that I’ll look back on my life and I’ll be disappointed but won’t know how I could’ve fixed it. I need meaning.

Back-Up Friend

I literally have no friends. It seems like it is the same problem with all of them, where I am the only one putting effort towards seeing them. Slowly I’ve stopped trying all together, and I went over a month before finally hearing from my last “friend”. She used to contact me more, but I know I was just a replacement for her best friend who was away for college. Now that she is back , I’m lucky if she even acknowledges my calls/text messages.

I wonder what is wrong with me, and almost want to completely give up on anyone other then my husband and child, because at this point no one seems to care about me except them.

A lesbian destroyed my parents 20 years of marriage and my life.

This lesbian befriended my mom because my mom felt bad the lesbian had no friends. This lesbian destroyed my family causing emotional pain and to the point that I’m suicidal. As an only child I have no one to turn to and it is all because of a lesbian name Chris. This all began when I was 11. She manipulated me and my mom. My dad got furious and my mom separated my dad. For an 11 year old, this is too much to handle and the fact that my parents never talked to me about it. My dad moved out 5 minutes away and my mom claimed me with some visitation from dad. Throughout the years my mom bacame bipolar because of the symptoms I have notice. I blamed my mom for also starting this but I tried not to because she is my mom and I rely on her for my financial and living. Whenever I ask her what is going on she always changes the subject and to lie to my dad. I want this lesbian gone because she will do the same thing to others. I bet no one ever experienced this before. There’s alot more to the story but this is just some of the highlights. This bitch ruined my life.

Boyfriend

my boyfriend told me he loved me, now I feel like there is nothing more to work for on our relationship, and I’m board

Me, Myself and I

Relationships are hard. Women are strange,men are too. I do love my wife, i don’t know why i cannot stand her sometimes. When she is not near me, all i do is think of her and cannot wait to see her to kiss and hug her. Then when i do see her, it all goes away…Why do i feel like this. I wish i could tell her how i feel, but im scared that if i do, she will not take it well and work with me to find a solution for the problem, but instead she will feel guilty and think its all her fault, when it it not.

Driving

I was at a 4 way stop trying to turn right and traffic coming my way stopped. Assuming the car was trying to turn I made my turn only to hear the blaring of a horn. I slammed on my brakes and saw that it was a school bus with it’s red lights and stop signs out. Thank god the kid hadn’t gotten off the bus yet but I feel so guilty about it. I could’ve killed someones child all because I didn’t look. I keep seeing the bus drivers face in my mind because she looked so disgusted and I feel that way about myself. I will definitely drive more cautiously in the future specifically at that intersection

Ain’t broke? Don’t fix it

I’ve been sleeping with the same guy for 3 years now. I lost my virginity to him, but I’ve slept with other guys too. We are really close mates as well and I spend every weekend at his house with him and our other mates. I got really drunk and told him I loved him (I believed I did). He cut it off after that because he didn’t want to lead me on as this has always only been a simply physical relationship. He told me he wanted to see other people. I was hurt at the time and thinking about it now I mistook love for lust and really all I want is the sex, and to be in that same situation I was in… But it’s too late now :(