I realize, now, I am not good-looking.

I am 50. Male. I have never, ever, had a woman spontaneously start a conversation to ‘flirt’. No conversations except transactional ‘business’-type ones. Only recently have I learned that sometimes women ‘make the first move’ and approach men. Even when I was younger, I would always be the one to initiate any flirtation. Apparently, I am not now, nor was I ever, ‘attractive’. Continue reading I realize, now, I am not good-looking.

Just waiting to die

When someone commits suicide, everyone says “if only they said something” or “if only they sought help” Well I’ve been wishing for death for the last 12 months and trying to get help for the better part of 6 months. A colleague asked me what I was doing for lunch. I responded “walking into oncoming traffic” and they responded with “enjoy” without batting an eyelid. … Continue reading Just waiting to die